This was supposed to be my last and final round of chemo so that I can end 2020 on a good note. I was looking forward to celebrating Christmas cancer free. Around that time, I moved to a new place with the help of my parents. So quick shout-out to my parents for always being there whenever I needed them. I wouldn't have been able to have a smooth move if it weren't for their support. My body was so weak and fragile that I definitely couldn't do the move withot them. I was hoping to start 2021 with a clean slate. New year, new me, cancer free me at a new place and resuming my "new job."
Anyways, it wasn't exactly one of the easiest chemos I had but definitely not the hardest one. My first round of R-CHOP was still the craziest and most difficult one but this round was rather strange. I mean, I generally experienced the same side effects as the other rounds only that things started to get very weird two weeks after I completed this chemo. I was experiencing the same symptoms before my official cancer diagnosis: dried cough, fatigue, wheezing, swollen lymph nodes and even dizziness. At one point- it got so serious that I collapsed and fainted after trying to go to the bathroom. I was unconscious for a few minutes. My parents had to call my doctor and I almost had to go to the ER. Luckily I woke up before they proceeded to call the ER. After I woke up up, I was so confused and my parents looked horrified. For a second, I forgot that I actually blacked out. My doctor initially thought that I had a virus.
Then my first follow-up PET- CT scan took place on the 16th of December and guess what?! I fuckin' relapsed right after the treatment. I mean, I have heard of people relapsing 6 months or a year after treatment but not directly after treatment. In a way, I felt like I broke the Guiness World Record for the fastest recurrence. In no way am I proud of claiming this kind of award if this kind of thing existed. I felt so crushed. This meant that my fight with cancer was far from over. I basically have to go through a couple of salvage chemos, followed by stem cell transplant and radiotherapy. YAY!!!
Anyways, because of the combination of this devastating news, I would rate my overall experience as a 2/10.
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